As a parent whose child came to believe he was trans after being immersed in toxic online forums on Reddit and Discord, I was appalled by the evidence of grooming I saw immediately . I was dismissed, shamed, silenced, and threatened with the myth of suicide by both of my two children, therapists, coworkers, and teachers at a school I had dedicated 14 years of volunteer time to. This has taken a toll on my marriage, caused me to resign from my job, destroyed my trust in institutions, caused me to question my own sanity, political views, definition of faith and family. My lowest day was the day my employer celebrated the success of her son’s ( 21 years old) orchiectomy in a work group chat. I was terrified this was the path my son (then 15) had put himself on before he had ever engaged in intimacy, or experienced real loving affection for another human being. That day, I looked for a rafter in my basement to hang myself from because of the hopelessness I felt. It took sheer will to face each day. There seemed to be nowhere to turn. This darkness is like nothing I’ve ever faced. It has taken 4.5 years to rebuild my self esteem, my parental agency, and to get control of the fear that gripped my heart like a vice. Living in that state 24/7 is unbearable. This is what this ideology does to mothers and fathers and families. Today I give thanks to the underground parent networks of people like me... those who knew there was no way three kids on my own street could suddenly be trans. What I just don’t understand is how anyone sees this as possible that you can become your self by denying yourself. As a product of the “free to be you and me” generation, I am still jaw droppingly stunned by this entire idea! This movement is based on affirming self hatred! We must expose the link to online activism and grooming to the declaration of ROGD. Our kids are the victims of a culture where there are too few Jamie Reeds! With voices like yours, I grow in hope and faith in humanity once more! TY!
If hearing that your child is trans made you suicidal and your child is happy on Testosterone, maybe it’s you who fell for an ideology, one of transphobia.
Sounds like that might be the point where a teenager becomes an adult who has to pay their own bills. Then they notice the transphobia that exists in the workplace.
I have my own clinic horror story. Clinicians voicing “support” to my 15yo child in his desire to transition despite my refusal to consent. But that’s not the story here. The story here is you. It’s not heroic to do what’s easy, what comes naturally. It’s heroic to find your way out — let the gnawing discomfort find its way to the surface and, despite the negative consequences, do what you know to be right. The past harm and regret doesn’t change that. It makes it all the more remarkable that you spoke out instead of just going along or getting out and fading into the background. You are a hero, Jamie. We need a million more of you. I hope you’ve given others the courage to help end this tragedy.
Thank you, Jamie Reed! The tide is turning and people are beginning to realize the lie that is “gender affirming care.” People like you have made this reality possible! Carry on! So many people are counting on you!
Thank you so much for your honest accounting of what happened and is still happening in many places. This article explains so much in detail from someone who was there and knows. It helps so much to have the truth come from you -rather than just the parents and detransitioners. I think your idea to require a pause if one parents objects to transitioning is a really good one to keep families from ripping apart further than they already are.
Your piece long-winded but says nothing. In your original complaint, you made a lot of charges, but now you admit that you only handled intake. What you admitted here contradicts your original claim. You are voicing the same lies and distortions about gender affirming care that have been constantly repeated. The only difference is this is a new avenue. Your comments have been refuted by employees at the medical facility as well as patients and their families. Please stop lying and trying to cause harm.
I don’t see any contradictions, and it’s pretty bold to accuse someone of lying. Do you honestly believe that someone married to a trans man is intent on causing “harm” to people who identify as trans? Or that it’s somehow harmful to demand improved medical care for children that doesn’t divide families and doesn’t blindly transition every child who walks through their door? Honestly, you make no sense and you seem to want to curtail discussion that validates the experience of countless parents — which is absolutely not going to happen. Ms. Reed’s testimony doesn’t delegitimize whatever you’ve done or whatever you believe, and your attempt to invalidate her experiences (and ours) just comes off as desperate.
I have yet to meet a non-affirming parent who was treated otherwise (differently than Jamie Reed reports here) by a gender clinic. To me, she is a hero to come forward. I'm incredibly grateful. No one believes the parents.
The parents are not believed. The New York Times and others have been mostly insisting only on reporting if parents will give their names and thus expose the entire family struggle to outside attack and influence, with an enormous risk to their child. (Mostly. In contrast they did a whole anonymous op ed by an affirming parent.)
Ms. Reed, I wonder if you have any understanding how much harm you have done. Your article fanned the flames such that now, kids in Missouri who need care will not be able to access it. You set your opinions ahead of a scientific consensus, and got between kids and parents and their doctors. I wonder if you will ever feel shame for this.
Please provide scientific references to support your statement of scientific consensus. And no, the articles from NPR and statements from organizations such as WPATH or even APA don't count as SCIENTIFIC proof. A systematic review of data (that's how we reach consensus in the science world) would be lovely.
What you did was cowardly. If you believed in your convictions, you would have made a complaint with the medical board. If that didn’t work, talk to LGBTQ organizations and parents about your concerns and have those uncomfortable conversations. Instead, you hid behind transphobic rightwing lawyers and our attorney general. One referred to gay people as “cockroaches” and the other attempted through an EO to take gender affirming care away from all people, including adults like your husband. Hiding behind powerful bigots is the opposite of heroic. Yeah, it is a shame that the state “had” to get involved because you put a target on our kids’ backs. Now many of us are getting our kids out of Missouri so they will be safe from the harm you helped start. How exactly are you protecting kids? The sad thing is that if there were a problem with gender affirming care, you made it that much harder to believe it. Allying yourself with people who are racist, transphobic, and science denying destroyed your credibility with the people you are supposedly trying to help, our kids. Even our kids understand that people like Andrew Bailey and our MO Legislators are allied with hate groups like the Proud Boys and Moms for Liberty, groups that want them dead.
Yuck. I hope you don't say that to children. You should examine your own motives and conscience. Seems like you need alot of work to stop being a hateful, selfish, and judgemental.
It shouldn't be hard for you to comprehend that someone, a mother of five who loves children and was trying her best to help other ppls children, who worked in the field had access to far more insight and information into what became essentially coercive malpractice.
I've watched multiple interviews with her and she's given sworn affidavits. She took it up the chain of command and was ignored. When you try to work within the system to get problems addressed and the system is broken and other people's children and families are being actively harmed - it's time to get outside help. This was a loooong process. And nothing changed until she blew the whistle.
You're so hateful you don't care about other people's children who were being HARMED in a broken "health care" setting. Do you ever step outside of your own selfish little mind? Do you ever care about anyone else?
Do you know who is on Jamie’s side? Sen. Mike Moon who championed child marriage and called homosexuality a sin against God and several other Republicans who have connections to the IBLP (made famous by the Duggar documentary). Vernadette Broyles, her attorney, who compared gay people to cockroaches and admitted that the gender affirming care bans are strategic attacks on all LGBTQ people in leaked memos. Ernie Trakas, a county councilman who fought against gay marriage and for bathroom bans. If you ally yourself with those people who are encouraging stochastic terrorism against our children and families, you are a bad person. You do not care about kids. If she were sincere, the right thing to do would be to talk to parents. But that way she’s be opening herself up to criticism. That she didn’t have the nerve to do but she could put our kids in harm’s way by the Qanon crowd and hide behind TFP pay walls. Where are all these suffering families from our Wash U Trans Center? I know many of them and all of our kids are happy with the care and terrified of the position Jamie put them in. You know we didn’t have one Missouri trans family testifying in favor of banning gender affirming care that ultimately passed. We had the same couple of detransitioners flown here from out of state that all of the states had. Oh and sometimes we had Proud Boys accompanying them. With all these suffering Missouri children Jamie was referring to, wouldn’t at least one of those families speak out along with her? Apparently she was saving people who didn’t want to be saved. That should have given her pause. She is not a doctor and no patient was asking her for help. And now there has been an investigation of Wash U where no wrongdoing was found. But that won’t stop the Missouri GOP from continuing to use Jamie’s whistleblowing to further strip LGBTQ people of their rights. They know their voters love conspiracy theories. Truth doesn’t matter. Wrong side of history? That’s hilarious! Do you think Mississippi and Alabama are on the cutting edge of medicine while states like New York and California have yet to catch up with them? If you’re British, you might want to read up on the states that are on Jamie’s side based upon their ignorance and bigotry. Do you have a kid who you fear losing to suicide if they lost access to their gender affirming care which makes them happy and successful? What a disgusting thing for you to say to a parent like me.
No speech (or writing) is more powerful than that which emerges without filters or artifice from the direct personal experience of a person who has committed herself to representing that experience truthfully. This is that. Thank you.
Ms. Reed: Are there not cases where a child never even makes the decision at all? Situations in which overzealous professionals or parents insist on it?
Clarifying Red Pill meaning! Hi Jaime, Interestingly I just the other day decided to scour the internet for an informative article about trans and the Matrix. So, interesting that you mention the red pill. Link is after this paragraph. If I read the article right, and with my knowledge of seeing the movies many times, the red pill attack was actually calling you a Republican after all, but there is more to it. Essentially, in the movie Neo takes the red pill and therefor learns the truth that they are living in a computer simulated world and he then is able to rescue his actual body to be in the real world which is sadly environmentally devastated. Apparently Republicans decided to take on the idea of taking the red pill for themselves, as if THEY see through things ie Republican conspiracists call themselves red pillers! But ironically the movie's meaning of red pill is to see behind the falsehood . . . and it was actually a metaphor for being trans. The film makers wanted Neo to be a female in the "real" world free from "the matrix". So, all to say this metaphor is ridiculously loaded and contradictory.
Forget the Red Pill: Queer Politics but also Transhumanist Ideology in <i>The Matrix</i>
Following the <i>Matrix</i> trilogy (1999, 2003, 2003) the franchise’s iconic red pill trope became an anti-feminist meme in neo-fascist circles. This essay analyzes how <i>Matrix Resurrections</i> (2021) reclaims the red pill in an explicitly feminist and queer narrative. But the fourth <i>Matrix</i> film also is an ideological fantasy: <i>Resurrections</i> resonates just too much with a transhumanist belief in a human-machine synergy that also fuels Silicon Valley’s new American Dream. Propelled by this transhuman delusion, <i>The Matrix</i> ultimately has little to say about life in the era of climate catastrophe and control capitalism.
Also, I am so grateful for you. I wish we could talk directly and hope we will some day. I'm a psychotherapist in private practice in a college town and have a young daughter, and I feel alone in this journey of gathering my facts and thoughts and coming forward. I don't work with children but it is still relevant because of young adult clients. I, culture wise, am surrounded by it, as it were.
Jaime, I guess I see your piece partially as an account of your examination of your self, of your evolving understanding and awareness of how wrong it all started to feel... and your resolution to get out of that situation and try to bring transparency to what was occurring... to make things better.
I hope you can truly feel that you've realigned yourself with a path where you're conscientiously making decisions you feel right about. And I hope that your heart can be light and at peace. Don't beat yourself up about it. 💕
As a parent whose child came to believe he was trans after being immersed in toxic online forums on Reddit and Discord, I was appalled by the evidence of grooming I saw immediately . I was dismissed, shamed, silenced, and threatened with the myth of suicide by both of my two children, therapists, coworkers, and teachers at a school I had dedicated 14 years of volunteer time to. This has taken a toll on my marriage, caused me to resign from my job, destroyed my trust in institutions, caused me to question my own sanity, political views, definition of faith and family. My lowest day was the day my employer celebrated the success of her son’s ( 21 years old) orchiectomy in a work group chat. I was terrified this was the path my son (then 15) had put himself on before he had ever engaged in intimacy, or experienced real loving affection for another human being. That day, I looked for a rafter in my basement to hang myself from because of the hopelessness I felt. It took sheer will to face each day. There seemed to be nowhere to turn. This darkness is like nothing I’ve ever faced. It has taken 4.5 years to rebuild my self esteem, my parental agency, and to get control of the fear that gripped my heart like a vice. Living in that state 24/7 is unbearable. This is what this ideology does to mothers and fathers and families. Today I give thanks to the underground parent networks of people like me... those who knew there was no way three kids on my own street could suddenly be trans. What I just don’t understand is how anyone sees this as possible that you can become your self by denying yourself. As a product of the “free to be you and me” generation, I am still jaw droppingly stunned by this entire idea! This movement is based on affirming self hatred! We must expose the link to online activism and grooming to the declaration of ROGD. Our kids are the victims of a culture where there are too few Jamie Reeds! With voices like yours, I grow in hope and faith in humanity once more! TY!
If hearing that your child is trans made you suicidal and your child is happy on Testosterone, maybe it’s you who fell for an ideology, one of transphobia.
1. Penny wrote that her daughter SEEMS happy not that she IS happy.
2. Read detransitioners stories. The regret often starts 5-7 years after transitioning.
Sounds like that might be the point where a teenager becomes an adult who has to pay their own bills. Then they notice the transphobia that exists in the workplace.
I have my own clinic horror story. Clinicians voicing “support” to my 15yo child in his desire to transition despite my refusal to consent. But that’s not the story here. The story here is you. It’s not heroic to do what’s easy, what comes naturally. It’s heroic to find your way out — let the gnawing discomfort find its way to the surface and, despite the negative consequences, do what you know to be right. The past harm and regret doesn’t change that. It makes it all the more remarkable that you spoke out instead of just going along or getting out and fading into the background. You are a hero, Jamie. We need a million more of you. I hope you’ve given others the courage to help end this tragedy.
Thank you, Jamie Reed! The tide is turning and people are beginning to realize the lie that is “gender affirming care.” People like you have made this reality possible! Carry on! So many people are counting on you!
Thank you so much for your honest accounting of what happened and is still happening in many places. This article explains so much in detail from someone who was there and knows. It helps so much to have the truth come from you -rather than just the parents and detransitioners. I think your idea to require a pause if one parents objects to transitioning is a really good one to keep families from ripping apart further than they already are.
Your piece long-winded but says nothing. In your original complaint, you made a lot of charges, but now you admit that you only handled intake. What you admitted here contradicts your original claim. You are voicing the same lies and distortions about gender affirming care that have been constantly repeated. The only difference is this is a new avenue. Your comments have been refuted by employees at the medical facility as well as patients and their families. Please stop lying and trying to cause harm.
I don’t see any contradictions, and it’s pretty bold to accuse someone of lying. Do you honestly believe that someone married to a trans man is intent on causing “harm” to people who identify as trans? Or that it’s somehow harmful to demand improved medical care for children that doesn’t divide families and doesn’t blindly transition every child who walks through their door? Honestly, you make no sense and you seem to want to curtail discussion that validates the experience of countless parents — which is absolutely not going to happen. Ms. Reed’s testimony doesn’t delegitimize whatever you’ve done or whatever you believe, and your attempt to invalidate her experiences (and ours) just comes off as desperate.
I have yet to meet a non-affirming parent who was treated otherwise (differently than Jamie Reed reports here) by a gender clinic. To me, she is a hero to come forward. I'm incredibly grateful. No one believes the parents.
The parents are not believed. The New York Times and others have been mostly insisting only on reporting if parents will give their names and thus expose the entire family struggle to outside attack and influence, with an enormous risk to their child. (Mostly. In contrast they did a whole anonymous op ed by an affirming parent.)
Ms. Reed, I wonder if you have any understanding how much harm you have done. Your article fanned the flames such that now, kids in Missouri who need care will not be able to access it. You set your opinions ahead of a scientific consensus, and got between kids and parents and their doctors. I wonder if you will ever feel shame for this.
Please provide scientific references to support your statement of scientific consensus. And no, the articles from NPR and statements from organizations such as WPATH or even APA don't count as SCIENTIFIC proof. A systematic review of data (that's how we reach consensus in the science world) would be lovely.
Still waiting on the AG's and Josh Hawley's reports corroborating Jamie's story. I suspect I'll be waiting a long time.
Evidence-based medicine was being practiced at WUTC already. Now many minors will be unable to access it.
And if anyone tells you WUTC was providing bottom surgeries to minors, they're selling you something.
What you did was cowardly. If you believed in your convictions, you would have made a complaint with the medical board. If that didn’t work, talk to LGBTQ organizations and parents about your concerns and have those uncomfortable conversations. Instead, you hid behind transphobic rightwing lawyers and our attorney general. One referred to gay people as “cockroaches” and the other attempted through an EO to take gender affirming care away from all people, including adults like your husband. Hiding behind powerful bigots is the opposite of heroic. Yeah, it is a shame that the state “had” to get involved because you put a target on our kids’ backs. Now many of us are getting our kids out of Missouri so they will be safe from the harm you helped start. How exactly are you protecting kids? The sad thing is that if there were a problem with gender affirming care, you made it that much harder to believe it. Allying yourself with people who are racist, transphobic, and science denying destroyed your credibility with the people you are supposedly trying to help, our kids. Even our kids understand that people like Andrew Bailey and our MO Legislators are allied with hate groups like the Proud Boys and Moms for Liberty, groups that want them dead.
Yuck. I hope you don't say that to children. You should examine your own motives and conscience. Seems like you need alot of work to stop being a hateful, selfish, and judgemental.
It shouldn't be hard for you to comprehend that someone, a mother of five who loves children and was trying her best to help other ppls children, who worked in the field had access to far more insight and information into what became essentially coercive malpractice.
I've watched multiple interviews with her and she's given sworn affidavits. She took it up the chain of command and was ignored. When you try to work within the system to get problems addressed and the system is broken and other people's children and families are being actively harmed - it's time to get outside help. This was a loooong process. And nothing changed until she blew the whistle.
You're so hateful you don't care about other people's children who were being HARMED in a broken "health care" setting. Do you ever step outside of your own selfish little mind? Do you ever care about anyone else?
You're on the wrong side of history.
Do you know who is on Jamie’s side? Sen. Mike Moon who championed child marriage and called homosexuality a sin against God and several other Republicans who have connections to the IBLP (made famous by the Duggar documentary). Vernadette Broyles, her attorney, who compared gay people to cockroaches and admitted that the gender affirming care bans are strategic attacks on all LGBTQ people in leaked memos. Ernie Trakas, a county councilman who fought against gay marriage and for bathroom bans. If you ally yourself with those people who are encouraging stochastic terrorism against our children and families, you are a bad person. You do not care about kids. If she were sincere, the right thing to do would be to talk to parents. But that way she’s be opening herself up to criticism. That she didn’t have the nerve to do but she could put our kids in harm’s way by the Qanon crowd and hide behind TFP pay walls. Where are all these suffering families from our Wash U Trans Center? I know many of them and all of our kids are happy with the care and terrified of the position Jamie put them in. You know we didn’t have one Missouri trans family testifying in favor of banning gender affirming care that ultimately passed. We had the same couple of detransitioners flown here from out of state that all of the states had. Oh and sometimes we had Proud Boys accompanying them. With all these suffering Missouri children Jamie was referring to, wouldn’t at least one of those families speak out along with her? Apparently she was saving people who didn’t want to be saved. That should have given her pause. She is not a doctor and no patient was asking her for help. And now there has been an investigation of Wash U where no wrongdoing was found. But that won’t stop the Missouri GOP from continuing to use Jamie’s whistleblowing to further strip LGBTQ people of their rights. They know their voters love conspiracy theories. Truth doesn’t matter. Wrong side of history? That’s hilarious! Do you think Mississippi and Alabama are on the cutting edge of medicine while states like New York and California have yet to catch up with them? If you’re British, you might want to read up on the states that are on Jamie’s side based upon their ignorance and bigotry. Do you have a kid who you fear losing to suicide if they lost access to their gender affirming care which makes them happy and successful? What a disgusting thing for you to say to a parent like me.
No speech (or writing) is more powerful than that which emerges without filters or artifice from the direct personal experience of a person who has committed herself to representing that experience truthfully. This is that. Thank you.
Ms. Reed: Are there not cases where a child never even makes the decision at all? Situations in which overzealous professionals or parents insist on it?
Clarifying Red Pill meaning! Hi Jaime, Interestingly I just the other day decided to scour the internet for an informative article about trans and the Matrix. So, interesting that you mention the red pill. Link is after this paragraph. If I read the article right, and with my knowledge of seeing the movies many times, the red pill attack was actually calling you a Republican after all, but there is more to it. Essentially, in the movie Neo takes the red pill and therefor learns the truth that they are living in a computer simulated world and he then is able to rescue his actual body to be in the real world which is sadly environmentally devastated. Apparently Republicans decided to take on the idea of taking the red pill for themselves, as if THEY see through things ie Republican conspiracists call themselves red pillers! But ironically the movie's meaning of red pill is to see behind the falsehood . . . and it was actually a metaphor for being trans. The film makers wanted Neo to be a female in the "real" world free from "the matrix". So, all to say this metaphor is ridiculously loaded and contradictory.
https://journals.publishing.umich.edu/fc/article/id/3608/
Forget the Red Pill: Queer Politics but also Transhumanist Ideology in <i>The Matrix</i>
Following the <i>Matrix</i> trilogy (1999, 2003, 2003) the franchise’s iconic red pill trope became an anti-feminist meme in neo-fascist circles. This essay analyzes how <i>Matrix Resurrections</i> (2021) reclaims the red pill in an explicitly feminist and queer narrative. But the fourth <i>Matrix</i> film also is an ideological fantasy: <i>Resurrections</i> resonates just too much with a transhumanist belief in a human-machine synergy that also fuels Silicon Valley’s new American Dream. Propelled by this transhuman delusion, <i>The Matrix</i> ultimately has little to say about life in the era of climate catastrophe and control capitalism.
journals.publishing.umich.edu
Also, I am so grateful for you. I wish we could talk directly and hope we will some day. I'm a psychotherapist in private practice in a college town and have a young daughter, and I feel alone in this journey of gathering my facts and thoughts and coming forward. I don't work with children but it is still relevant because of young adult clients. I, culture wise, am surrounded by it, as it were.
Jaime, I guess I see your piece partially as an account of your examination of your self, of your evolving understanding and awareness of how wrong it all started to feel... and your resolution to get out of that situation and try to bring transparency to what was occurring... to make things better.
I hope you can truly feel that you've realigned yourself with a path where you're conscientiously making decisions you feel right about. And I hope that your heart can be light and at peace. Don't beat yourself up about it. 💕